The Introduction

So here I am being brave and all. The time has come to let out my true emotions. Why on here? Well, we all hate "those" Facebook friends who constantly whinge and bitch about everything in their life, never have anything positive to say on their updates etc. So I decided this may be an easier way to "vent" and "rant". Maybe even a more positive way also. I might even gain a few "followers" who can relate to what I am thinking and saying.

So what am I here to whinge and moan about? Same as most other people I think. Life in general. But my biggest gripe with the world is something quite deep. Something quite sad. Something a lot of people just will not understand. And I hope they never have to understand it.

What I am referring to is the loss of a child. Now I may not have met any of my children, but I have felt them, and I knew they were there. So did everyone else who was close to me. But only I can feel the empty space that is left, now that they're gone.

Over time, I will share some blogs that I'd written and kept private, which are from the time when I lost my third child. They might scare some of you, they may sadden some of you, even anger some. But I'd still like to share them, because I know there are other women out there just like me. Women who have lost children and fallen into this very dark place. I want those women to know that they are not alone. The thoughts and feelings they are having are not something to be ashamed of. I want to save a piece of your sanity.

I am going to be brutally honest with my emotions here. If anything I say offends, I am truly sorry. I just need to tell it how it is through my eyes.

I am here to heal myself, first and foremost. I just hope that I can help someone in some way whilst I am at it.

Love and light xo